a silver lining in the darkest cloud.

I love all the beautiful people in my life. I love how they come in to my life, make it beautiful with their presence and love that I am lucky enough to have them in my life...(what did I ever do to get so lucky?) That being said, I believe I have truly met an angel here on earth, as cliche and dumb as that 'phrase' is. I know there will be a time when I feel is right to tell this person what she has taught me, shown me and done for me and my life. For now though, I feel best writing a little letter here:)

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I don't want you to think I am writing this letter because of circumstances you've been faced with. But, I guess those circumstances are what have made me self reflect and realize how you've impacted me and my life. I can never repay you for the life lessons you have taught me. I can never fully explain how you've taught me to open my eyes and see a new way. I will always admire and challenge myself to be more like you. You came into my life at a time when I needed you. Exactly you. I didn't realize it until recently, but after realizing it, you could not have came at a more perfect time. Sometimes I struggle with the whole bigger power, God idea, but then, I think about how you were perfectly placed in my life and the impact you've had. It reminds me and gives me hope that there is something greater out there that placed you in my life...or me in yours;). It leaves me speechless. Really though, all I wanted to do in this letter is say thank you. Thank you for believing in me even when I didn't believe in myself. More importantly than that, thank you for teaching me to believe in myself again. Thank you for pushing me to fight for what I believe is right. Thank you for always listening (or pretending to listen;)) to my endless hours of rants, silly attitudes, vent sessions and bad jokes. Thank you for showing me that there are good, beautiful souls left in this world. Thank you for being you, always. No matter who is around or what is happening. Thank you for showing me strength when I couldn't find it. Thank you for always being honest with me and telling me things that I might not have wanted to hear, but that I needed to hear. Thank you for showing me what a strong, independent and beautiful woman can do. You inspire me. You set my soul on fire and give me motivation to try harder, be a better person and never give up. You truly are my hero and I hope that someday I can inspire someone the way you have to me. You are one of a kind. I hope you know how beautiful and bright you are in this dark and crazy world. I can never repay for the things you have taught me but thank you, again and again and again.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 

xoxoxoxox

notitle.

Last week in church the pastor talked about when people get desperate...when people get desperate they reach for anything. When he said this, I sort of thought about a few times I had been desperate, had I 'reached' for things? I couldn't really think of any times that I had personally done this. Hmmm. Pondered and pondered. I thought about a few of my family members who might have done something like this. Until last night, I realized that his statement, is grossly true. When anyone gets desperate they reach for all the wrong things. Being desperate wont bring you anything you need or truly want...So why not turn to Jesus when were feeling desperate?....

no words.

I have so much to say but no words to say them...

Miss Independent.

My Mama is amazing for a lot of reasons...she sent me this today...I had to share it.

I believe every time we feel frustration it means we've really stopped relying on God. That might sound like a bold statement to you, but think about it: God's given you and me his Holy Spirit and His grace to help us walk through anything that comes our way. Frustration hits when we stop depending on Him and try to make something happen our own way.

I struggle with this. A lot. I am so independent I try to handle everything on my own. I need to work on this.

hello feb!

I am so excited for this month...maybe just because Jan is FINALLY over.

Even if you think that a certain situation is totally cut and dried, you are going to need to stay open to the possibility that others don't see things that way on the 1st. If you do manage to stay generally open to the perspectives of others, you could stand to gain a real insight into the topic at hand, which could well be more complex -- and richer -- than you originally thought. Do your best! By the oh-so-persuasive 5th, you are just incredibly persuasive! In fact, there's not much you can't convince others to do for you. Use your power wisely! You are in planning mode on the 9th, and you're enjoying it. By the 13th, 14th and 15th, there's almost nothing that isn't going just right! Make sure you get in a couple of nice, long swims to round things off right. Why not redecorate on the 20th and 21st? Whether it's your home or your office or your rock band's touring van, if you want to change things up, you should go for it! You must, must, must work out on the 25th and 26th. Otherwise, that aggression will find a less helpful outlet. A new relationship? Leap on in on the 29th.

anchor.

next tattoo. yes.

thank you...

It blows my mind that its so easy for you to just walk away.

No matter how sad and heart broken it makes me, after all said in done I can only thank you.

Thank you for teaching me to cherish my true friends.
Thank you for teaching me to never walk out on anyone.
Thank you for making me realize, once again, everyone and everything can change so fast.