breaking.point.uglyness.

I wish I could say my life is full of rainbows, unicorns and gumdrops. Maybe it is and I am just being a brat. Maybe it is and I just don't see it because I refuse to. But then again, maybe it isn't. Maybe this time in my life is to test me, my strength and well being. I have been sick for what seems like 3 months now. I am exhausted, hardly sleep and feel like nothing can go my way. The worst part? I cant figure out why I feel this way. I have everything I could ever want but feel empty. I constantly think that I am not doing good enough or I could be doing better. I want instant results on everything and not getting 'instant'--it drives me crazy. My friends...my friends. I feel like were all at these super crazy stages in life. Some are married, babies, buying houses. Or in crazy relationships. Then there's me- which I have no problem with. I have too many internal issues I need to sort out before I try and date someone but its weird to see where I am at as opposed to everyone else. I am so tired of school I seriously debated quitting. WHY would I ever quit when I am this close to finishing? Seriously. I think I am having my quarter life crisis. WHAT.


PS. Whoa, has it really been almost two months since I have wrote on this lovely little blog?! Crazy.
xx