Texas is lucky.

Ohh one more thing. A dear friend of mine is moving to Texas and I am going to miss her soooooooooooooo much. Good luck Al, I cant wait to come visit you. :)
I love you. xo

Forgiveness?!...

Today my cousin sent me this quote...He said, I read this last night and it really reminded me of you...
Ahh ha, another blogging moment.

I didn't know what to think when he first told me but I quickly realized that we are all a little selfish, impatient and insecure. Is that a bad thing? Hell no. We all make mistakes and we have our moments where we are all a little hard to handle :) (okay, maybe me more than others, but still!) The last line is really my favorite but something that I personally I struggle accepting. "If you cant handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Of course with my ADD brain my thinking didn't stop here. I started thinking about what people really "deserve"...Now I have confused myself...Let me explain, someone does something bad, a guy hurts your best friend, the most frequent words spoken, "oh don't worry girl, he will get what he deserves." I am guilty of saying this, countless times. BUT this got me also thinking that we forgive people and in that forgiving -- we shouldn't be saying they will get what the deserve because if there is forgiveness what would they deserve? The best. That's a hard one to swallow but after stewing on it for countless hours today and most of my time at the gym tonight, I don't think you can't fully forgive someone until you want the best for them and until you realize that they did in fact make a mistake but it wasn't the end of the world and life does go on...I don't know where else I want this to go but I know I have more to say...sleeping meds must be kicking in.

To be continued...

california dreaming...

Ohhhh my goodness. What a WONDERFUL week I had in California! :) I really don't even know where to start. haha. Monday started our vacation, we drove down to Grants Pass (in southern Oregon) and stayed the night there. Tuesday we woke up early and ready to hit the road, eager for some Cali sunshine. We made it to Santa Rosa Tuesday and did round one of wine tasting! Fun, fun, fun. I had never been wine tasting before and really enjoyed it, I learned a lot about wine and some pretty cool terms...(inky, jammy, dry...HAH) Anyways, we hit the town hard that night and paid for it the next day. Without going into great detail I will say it was much like our own version of the Hangover...Wednesday we were up early for our day in San Fran. HOW FUN! I had never been before and loved every minute of it! I want to go back very soon, there is just so much to see and do! Thursday we met up with some of Kendyl's friends and went to some more winery's and then out again, this night even better than the first! My oh my. Friday we lounged by the pool and I now have some pretty sweet tan lines. It was an amazing trip and I cannot thank Robin, Kendyl or Jeff enough for inviting and putting up with me :)

Yesterday for Father's day we headed out to the horse race track then came home and had sundays for dessert. I am so thankful for my dad and everything he does for me. He really is the best dad ever. I love him.

That is enough for today, I am so freaking tired and still have an hour left at work.

The weather man says its going to be sunny this week...I hope so, its almost freaking J U L Y. lordy.

Happy Monday my loves.
xo

my best sister.

I tried to publish a post for my best, Kate on her birthday but my silly Andriod kept giving me some silly message it couldn't publish...junk! Here it is:

You know that cheesy but oh so true saying, "God made us best friends because no one could handle us as sisters?" yeah, that one, that is my lovely Kate and I. I never imagined I could have a best friend like her, and I truly consider her my sister... Nor did I ever imagine there would be someone who legitimately understood me ALL the time. Our friendship is effortless, its so natural and something I deeply cherish. I will keep my love for her short, because in all honesty I could write pages and pages for days and days. So, Happy Birthday to my best sister; here's to a new year full of fun adventures and lots of love. I love you!
xo

Monday...

Helllooooooo.

I hope everyone had a great weekend...I know I had a fabulous weekend! The birthday dinner was awesome, I love spending time with sweet little Lola. She brings so much laughter and joy to me, her personality is really indescribable. I consider myself a lucky girl just knowing those three <3

One thing I really thought about this weekend is that we’re all dealt bad cards; it’s a matter of how we let them affect us and how we play them that matters. Life will always have its downs and bad things but what you take and what you learn from it; that’s what really matters. On Saturday we were able to spend some time with Skyler. I won’t go into great detail but wow, wow, wow. What an amazing and eye opening experience. I left there feeling totally renewed and thankful for my life and a whole new outlook on a lot of things. For that, I am grateful. On a lighter note of that day, Skyler and his roommate caught a few bees and put them in the freezer, then tied them to strings, we weren’t able to see one actually take flight but I hope it ended up working, guess I will wait for Thursday to find out! :)

This afternoon I am headed to California with my dear Kendyl and her mom, Robin. I AM SO EXCITED! Here’s to an awesome trip full of wine, fun and sunshine.

Congratulations to all my sweet little graduates! I am so proud of all of you!

Lastly, I wish the happiest birthday to my sweet hub, Sean. I hope your day is as great as you are!

Happy Monday my lovelys.

xoxo

fajitas, drinks and rainbow-chip cake...

Today is not my day so instead of leaving you with some rant; I will save you your precious time and cut it short. I should be doing a happy dance that Spring quarter is finally over...let’s just say, procrastination got the best of me. My 26 essays...(HAHA) MOVING ON, tonight, Kate, Sean and Lola are headed over for their birthday dinner. Kate requested fajitas and rainbow-chip cake...mmmhmm. I am already hungry!
Early morning tomorrow with my Skyler then busy afternoon with lots of cleaning and packing to do...3 days until California. I cannot wait to escape for a few days.

I hope all of you have a fabulous evening, I love you all. xoxo

courage...

Last night as I was working on my essays and I had to read this story about courage (who knew all this reading would get me thinking!) followed by writing an essay on someone I thought was courageous and why I thought that. My first thought was my dad. How awesome is my freaking dad! He joined the army to fight for freedom so my brothers and I didn’t have to. WOW. Then I thought about my mom, how everyday she is courageous in everything she does. Then I thought about my baby brother, Skyler… His courage is above that of anyone I know. I was in near tears thinking about how proud I am of him.  Which then lead me to another thought, how scary life is when you enter the unknown, when you begin a new path in life -- going in almost feeling blindfolded. How much courage must you have to do that?! Then it got me thinking about how all of us every single day are courageous in everything we do.We are all our own superheroes, really. Example: Say you're having a really bad day and everything is just wrong, you know, one of those ‘Fuck Today’ days. So you go to bed and are determined to make tomorrow a better day, waking up and making it happen is totally courageous if you ask me! So today, even if you feel small and puny, go be COURAGEOUS and even if you think you’re not, you really are so just accept it! J

And Tanner, if you are reading this, I think you are super courageous for going to work and singing! Haha. :-{)

Happy Thursday my beautiful babies!
xoxo
Ohh one more thing, my sweet Kate has now started a blog...She is destined to become a chef / baker extraordinaire- please go check out her blog!...maybe you can learn a thing or two!

http://lollipopsforlola.wordpress.com/

finals week and little things...

I don't know why I am even surprised that I would get sick finals week, I ALWAYS get sick this week. Last night I finished up my Children's Literature final...I am SO glad that freaking class is OVER. I haven't made great progress on my freaking essays; hopefully tonight I can hammer a few more out. haha. Who am I kidding; I need to steer clear of online classes...

Some food for thought...In my online class I had to read a short story called, The Necklace. In the story, a very poor couple is invited to a fancy ball; the wife of course insists she needs a new dress so her husband sends her with a couple hundred dollars. After finding the perfect dress (and spending all the money) she decides she needs some jewelry to go along with it. Since her husband gave her all the extra money they had in the first place, he suggests she asks her best friend if she can borrow a piece, as the friend is very wealthy. They enjoy themselves and after getting home they realize she has lost the necklace. After finding one just like it, taking out bank loans and working their asses off the next ten years, the friend who let her borrow the jewelry see's her downtown and doesn’t even recognize her because she looks so old and haggard. After a few minutes of their conversation the friend admits to that piece of jewelry was fake...the poor couple spend close to $36,000 and ten year working 'replacing' the lost necklace...

WOW, right?! I don't know if it is just me or if this story makes you really stop and think. Think about what is really important. Was the fancy party even worth it? Was the necklace worth it? If this story doesn’t open your eyes to the mere fact that there are more important things in life than 'costume' things, I’m not sure anything will. There is a lot to be taken from that story, I think. There is so much more to life than social status, some important fancy party, a stupid dress or some dumb fake necklace…So my friends, stop and smell the roses today, so often we get wrapped up in all the little things.

Happy Wednesday
xoxo

day one.

Hello all!
I am still trying to figure this whole 'blogging' thing out. I need to get writing my 26 essays but I will leave you with something else to read for today...

http://rockstarronan.com/

Happy Tuesday.
xo