changing seasons...

After my regret rant yesterday and a quick chat with my dad today, I realized something. Getting over someone is like the changing seasons. Sounds crazy, I know, I know, just hear me out.

My least favorite season is Fall, Fall and Winter could fall off this earth and I wouldn't be the least bit sad. So days after my break up when I was sad, realized what could have been or what isn't anymore is was like my fall. I hate it. I didn't want to do anything, my heart hurt and I didn't like my new season change.

Winter came and it got a little easier, I still didn't like the change, it was still dark and gloomy. I didn't like the season but my heart slowly felt better. I slowly realized soon spring and summer would be here, when the times get easier.

Each season brings new challenges and new healing.

Spring arrived and my heart was almost full again. The sun came out, the flowers started blooming and my heart started to smile. I felt like myself again.

Summer is here. I am finally letting go of what I cant change. What was, what is and what could have been. They don't matter anymore. Those were things that filled my fall and winter. I am in summer. Why would I look back and dwell on the things I don't like? It isn't going to do me any good. I like summer. I like the warm days and cooler nights. I like the clear skies and stars. I love everything about summer, I am not going to dwell on my fall or winter.

So now I am faced with learning to accept what I can't change. And after my conversation with my daddy today I realize how much I have grown and pushed on. He told me I inspired him and that I make him proud.

He said, "I have never saw such determination and sheer will from you and I think that relationship is partially responsible. I have told your mom how very proud I am of how hard you work and your persistence striving for your goals." He's right. He is so right! I have been able to push myself harder than ever before because of my past. Because I realize what happens when I sit back and let someone do it for me.

My ladies, I just hope you all remember, when we have our winters about different things that may come up in our lives, summer does come again. And it will come back better, bigger and more badass than the year before. And eventually it will be so great that our winters will be summers all year long :)

xxxxoooo.